I'm a Sour Puss

That should be my new yahoo instant messenger name. For the life of me, I just can't seem to be happy for any of my real life friends. Maybe that's why I don't have many. They all just get on my nerves (Ok..I just exaggerated there, but sometimes they do).

I just found out one of my girlfriends is prego. She's 34, and I think the pressure to have kids before all her eggs die is getting to her. She dated a guy (Bill) for about 5 years who already had 2 kids and was divorced. She said that he just wasn't the perfect guy for her. He was kind of lazy, and wouldn't really do anything unless he was pushed/forced to do it. Definitely not her style, but he was nice and pretty fun.

The father of the kid (Michael) is even worse than the previous guy. He seems kind of gay to me. He makes a lot of flimsy hand movements, and has that voice. I think he was probably in drama or something. Anyway, this girlfriend of mine hung out with Ed's family and me at Medieval Times in December, and she didn't know she was pregnant then. We were discussing Michael and she said that she is having fun with him now, but he's really not the guy she sees for a future. He reminded her of her old boyfriends and she didn't want to make the same mistakes again as far as hanging out with a loser for more than a year, spending every last dime she had on the guy, moving him into her apartment, etc.. This guy doesn't even have his driver's license, hardly works, and really doesn't even have a future of his own, let alone try to include my friend and her baby. He sucks, basically, and I'm not happy that she's pregnant with his kid. I wish her the best, and I know she'll be a great mom. I just think she could have done better. I think I should have tried harder to have her meet a few guy friends that I do have in real life. I even thought last night that I wish Bill was the dad.

I guess I'm a horrible friend for not being happy for any of my friends. I just think so highly of them, and want them to have the world and it seems like all of them are compromising because they have this idea of how things should be. *big sigh*